disillusion.......

hate my job. yep, just hate it. I find it more difficult each day to go there. hate the room move my principal did to me at the beginning of the year, hate watching kids in the computer lab take virtual classes taught by people who have current teaching certificates but I question if they really know what they are doing. hate being isolated in a flipping corner.

I HAVE TO GET A NEW JOB. I CANNOT CONTINUE THIS JOB ANOTHER YEAR. IT IS EATING ME AWAY SLOWLY BUT SURELY.

while I realize other people have bigger problems, etc. I can understand that. but guess what - this is MY life and right now the work part of it sucks beyond all reason.

glad I wasted the time and money to finish my bachelor's degree. all it did was put me in debt. thanks for nothing.

fail

construction failures part 2 and then some

so....they put work orders in to fix this mess. See photo. Who knows how long this will take. The IT guys who need to change the data connection might be more trouble than the electric. haven't seen anything yet.



3 more job application rejections. Wow. Going back to school and finishing my bachelor's degree was a great success into going into debt with student loans. FAIL

construction failures

I can't remember if I complained (HA) about this but....

so last summer they finished construction on our building. I got moved to a new room - to supervise a computer lab with students who take Michigan Virtual High School classes. (another story in itself) I told the principal it was a demotion - he did not agree. Regardless, it was a demotion.

I have been isolated once again, feel very much alone and not part of the team. oh joy. HATE IT. HATE IT VERY MUCH. I have never hated my job like I do now.

back to the room - when it was "finished" the only things that had changed was the room had new furniture, a large screen tv and carpet. Oh, and one new cabinet where the controls for the large tv and corresponding computer are housed.

I complained. Imagine that. I complained loud. Got myself in trouble for doing so but I did succeed in getting new cabinets - like every other room in the building - that would be installed over Winter Break.

So the cabinets were installed last week, I was in the building and checked them out. They look fantastic. One slight problem. They installed them over the jacks work for my computer, my phone and the power.

So I ran into a guy in charge and he rather blew me off. He said - oh we can make cut outs in the backs of the cabinets and put grommets in to pull the wiring up and put my phone on the counter top. Ummmmmm I make attendance calls. Sometimes there are nearly a 100 to make. NOT going to make those from the counter.

I saw the building principal the same day and mentioned it to him. Might as well talk to the wind.

So today, I went up and dropped off my plants that I brought home over break. My desk was put back in the same place it had been (good). There is no where to plug anything in (bad). I sent an email to the principal AND his secretary.

Seeing as I have about 4 things that need to be done first thing on Monday, lets see how long this takes to get fixed.

Stay tuned.

same old and then some

This Christmas break is flying by so fast. We have had a guest from France since the 16th and she is off to stay with her host family from last year for the last few days she is here. Friday we take her back to O'Hare to fly home. I miss her already. And she is still in Portage. She is most definitely my child from another mother. :)

Christmas was busy and crazy, both my siblings were here - my sister with her girlfriend/wife or whatever she is. That was interesting....the woman talks non-stop, loud, drinks a lot. Really don't get why my sister loves her. She was nice but made me (and my mom) crazy.

My brother was good, he is doing well, missing his son terribly though.

We are enjoying being members of St. Tom's rather than St. Catherine's. Many people from St. Catherine's are showing up there....you think the bishop would cop a clue.

Still haven't found myself a new job, despite numerous applications out. I hope, wish, pray, that the right job comes soon. I so badly want to be out of where I am, have an excuse to quit golf as well. I need something new. Be a team player where I am actually on a team that communicates with me, values my input and makes me feel more than an afterthought.

Bleh.

broken hearted

worst day ever...in forever.

got a call this morning that my 32 year old nephew passed away. he leaves behind a wonderful wife and 2 beautiful boys.

he was a party boy - out camping with friends and passed out and aspirated. they could not revive him.

I am devastated.

it's a miracle!

so we finally decided to leave our church and go to a new one and we are happy there. we haven't joined yet but we have the paperwork

my mom got a phone call this evening from a member of our parish and it was announced that the pain in the butt priest is LEAVING and going back to where he came from. We were stunned...but then...not surprised.

where will we go now? probably going to continue at st tom's for now and perhaps back to st. catherine's at some point. st tom's was so welcoming and friendly....we really enjoyed it!

discouraged....?

I don't know if that is the right thing to say but it seems the best word at the moment.

Yesterday I turned 50 and it really was a nice day. Lots of Happy Birthday's on Facebook, a few phone calls and a great dinner with my family and some friends.

I was really hoping for the best gift - a phone call for a job interview. I have 3 places I have applied to and heard NOTHING yet. One I applied several weeks back, one last week and one earlier this week. I still search for a new job but not much is out there that is catching my eye at the moment. It's discouraging.

The last week at work was frustrating for me. My principal told me he was moving me out of my cozy office within the first floor grade office back to a computer lab to supervise it. Really. And I told him I thought it was a demotion, he said it wasn't, but I beg to differ. It IS a demotion. While he can't change my pay, it doesn't change that if I were to stay in that position and move to that lab in the fall, it would be a demotion. So discouraging.

My husband took the car our children share into being looked at because of some issues - it needs new tires - count 4. A new wheel, work on the suspension and other assorted things. To the tune of $1400+. To say nothing for the at least 2 tires I need for my car. More discouraging.

I don't know what do to for money this summer, I want to find something but I hate to find a part time job if one of these full time ones comes my way. UGH

My mom is frustrated - probably because of my sister, and because of things that need to be fixed at her house and now that my son is working all summer at a camp, he isn't around to help. My brother isn't readily available and I certainly don't know what to do. Just plain sad.

Hoping to find some light, encouragement and happy things.....if you see them send them my way please!