pitty party

I am throwing myself a pitty party.

I ache, just simply ache to go on vacation where money is no object, not that I am out to spend a ton - but can stay in a nice hotel, go to the beach or sight see, just get the heck out of here.

I want my useless brother to come and spend time with my mom. It has been 3 years since my dad has been gone and I am pretty much her support group. Amy lives too far away and I would like to keep it that way. But Frank - he is an arse. Calls rarely, comes over even less. Great sibling.

I am tire of the guilt of resenting the fact I am the ONLY ONE who does ANYTHING for my mother. I balance her checkbook, get her money from the bank, write her checks, take her places, listen to her when she needs to talk, or not. I should not feel this way about my mom. I love her, I treasure her, I value her and can't imagine life without her. But this is HARD. She isn't needy really, just technologically challenged - can't get her voicemail off the cell phone, and can't do email. She likes to cruise Facebook so I can't vent there.

Funny - my current status is "really truly would like to go on vacation". A friend said for me to go to my mom's because that is like a vacation and the food is always good. Not a vacation. Not right now. I need to GO AWAY.

Ugh.

garage sale

I'm getting ready for a garage sale this weekend - planning on having it Thurs-Saturday. We have accumulated entirely too much CRAP. And I need money. Hopefully the shoppers will be out with lots of money to give me and take away all my junk.

I cleaned out the hall closet this week - that resulted in 3 bags to go out to the garage. There is more in the basement that needs to come up. There is even more in my craft area that may never see the light of day. I went down there this morning and just stood there. It was scary. I would say about 3/4 of the things cluttering that corner of the basement can be recycled. I have tons and tons of rubber stamps that I don't use anymore. It is too bad they don't sell well...especially considering what I paid for all of it....

I don't think I have done any quilting or stamping - real stamping in over 2 years. When I went back to get my degree all of that went by the way...to collect dust.

I think that area will be a winter project when we all want to stay indoors away from the cold.